Working for the man every night and day
But I never lost a minute of sleep
Wondering 'bout the way things might have been...
Yes, it's true, after much deliberation, I have decided to leave my job of nine years and venture into full-time motherhood and wifehood. I have never really been happy since I went back to work in October; I always felt like I was missing out on too much. I kept working because it just seemed like too much of a commitment to quit. Leaving the security and the benefits of the City for the unknown was like jumping off a cliff.
But something kept tearing at me. The longer I stayed at work, the more often I thought about quitting. It got to where it was non-stop. Then I went to visit my family in Cincinnati with Eli over the past weekend. Over a long drive to Raleigh and then lots of conversations with my mom's and my wonderful friends, I decided it was time.
Since my mom passed, I have become keenly aware of how short life is and that I want to make the most of mine. I keep telling myself and everyone else who will listen that I can work any time, but I can never get these years back. I am so excited to start to live again, and to get to be Eli's one and only all day every day.
I know there will be times when I will get bored or tired of the stay-at-home-mom thing, but I expect there to be many more days and moments of love and fun. I might try to work part-time, but first I am going to just enjoy the summer; get Eli in swim lessons, travel more, go to the beach, and go for walks. My last day is June 17. Wish me luck!